"Of course," I said, posturing behind my liberalism and years of gender studies classes. While I'd met other transgender people, Liam was the first to come out to me directly. He played rough sports, worked construction, and trained his voice to sound deeper.
I felt like I was handed a live grenade—weren't confessions like that supposed to be explosive? Now that he was an adult, he could finally live as a man. In truth, I was in awe of the idea of totally reinventing yourself.
As we talked, his identity stopped seeming like an obstacle.
Instead, it felt like just another aspect of him, like the gold speckle in his left eye or the anchor tattooed on his left shoulder. And at that moment, any fears about his gender vanished.
When the early relationship fog cleared and I finally did start to think about what it all meant, I realized that I wasn't attracted to the "human male" as defined by an anatomy textbook.
I was attracted to masculinity, to manliness, which Liam had in spades.
Dating is tough for everyone, but dating as a transgender woman is even harder. Starting from the early stages of my transition at age 15, through sexual reassignment surgery at 19, to being an out and proud transgender woman at 24—I can say with certainty that I’ve gone out with pretty much every personality type.
And I didn't know how to brush Liam off without making it about his genitals: "Sorry, if you were born a guy, I'd be totally interested, but …?I didn't realize that Liam thought of our conversation as a date until he walked me home.Outside my apartment, he caught my eyes dead-on, hoping for a kiss.Isn't that what marriage means for anyone: committing to an uncertain future, together?Ours may be a little murkier than that of other couples, but I'm ready to be surprised by what's to come.Through these experiences, both hot and not, I’ve found there are four main types of guys I run into, being an out transgender woman.